Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Two people hand in hand, stars in their eyes, like a song moving together, rhythm divine and assuming everything is a paradise….. “Have u ever seen them?”, look closely they are all around .Have u ever been in love?, it’s a torture .Their are phases off course ,first phase when everything is wondrous and magnificent ,when you are all jittery and happy and you can’t stop smiling ,you sing love songs to each other ,you wait restlessly for a day to end ,so you can run to each other arms ,fall in those deep passionate kisses and tell everybody what miracle it is to be two, and you are the one giving advises to your single friends .
Then comes a second face, it’s a time when angels fly away, for women this phase often never arises but for men, this is a very casual affair. Honestly, it happens to both of them, when code of color fades away and relationship starts looking like X-rays, where faults of each other starts looking like a disease .Poisonous words starts replacing those passionate deep kisses ,suddenly saints turns into devil’s ,choking your heart ,your head and yourself.
And finally the third phase, now here comes a twist. There are two kinds of people …one, who loose heart, and other who work miracles .Love is not to be questioned or something to throw stones at .Its an art which teaches a person to believe in word called destiny. In west, there is a popular habit of people writing their own obituaries
You see there are two kinds of people winners and losers. In a small corner of everyman’s heart there is a loser, it depends on a man how badly he needs something and also a realization of sacrifices he needs to do to be a winner .God gave everyman the same structure, the same heart, and the same opportunities. But some of us misuse, misplace things and miss all the chances which can make our life more beautiful. That is why this third phase occurs in relationships.
I know a woman who was a blessed child ,never bad to anybody ,she was a angel ,believed everything and everybody ….and even if her faith got bruised ,she still use to smile .I have seen her in love and how she lost her passion and her hope with no fault of her own and that woman is me.
Thinking about those wonder years when I was in love ,I knew nothing could take that away from me .I did everything ,so that those phases never comes but they did .But I never lost my patience ,I never cried ,all I did was try. And one day when I woke up, there was lull around, and I found myself alone in my bed and remembering all things happened with me. Well I will let you discover nice thing about me ,I am very self dependent person, and sometimes it happens that it becomes my negative quality, and I happen to be a person who makes her own rules ,i mean when I was working, I was about to get promoted ,but i had stupid fight with my boss which by the way could have been resisted by me ,but I choosed to quit ,so while i was at my shift ,I came out of his cabin ,collected my stuff ,smiled at my co-workers and left. I was out of job for two months, I didn’t had any money even to eat, which was very bad .suddenly at that moment everything froze and suddenly I came to know what true friends are, which were none at that time. All I had was love and it also decided to leave me by sleeping with my best friend I was petrified, exhausted and with no hope .there were people in my life criticizing me, punching me with my mistakes on my face, I was being beaten down. But deep down somewhere in my heart I knew that this was not the end
Well what I really want to tell you is that, the third phase in my relationship really told me what life was, and it made me see my winners side. After spending so many nights and feeling sorry myself, I decided to carry on .I decided that I will not crumble or lay off and die .I choused to survive
I was not going to write my tragedy but just for now ,I decided to stop my tears and follow the bumps of my life ,I started to count to ten ,packed my bags and then I changed, I went back joined my college ,filed for my masters........................in all I grew up. This is unusual because I used to be a very naive kind of girl ....................now I can write a book on life........
They say bad things happen to good people, all you need to do is let go of your troubles and never regret over your mistakes. And if someday love decides to leave you, don’t get afraid, hold your head up high. Ask yourself “if you are in or out”? Leave your hopelessness aside .Its all right there is a beauty in breakdown.
If you think I can’t do it, think again
I can look ugly but you don’t damm change
If I call myself a feminist, let that be
Shout for my rights and stand by me
If I am an hour late, let that be ok
But you better be on time, if you want me to stay
I can change my mind million times
But you better say “yeah baby, I like that way”
Love me still, even if I had a bad hair day
And call me thrice, telling me how you missed me today
Let me drive your car, without
Telling me “woman you are driving all wrong”
I can eat and lick my finger,
Without you telling how ashamed you are of it, by the way
If I cry don’t tell me I am wining
Cause baby I am a woman, and I am suppose to be that way
Don’t betray me to sleep with my friend
Don’t you dare tell me I am dull?
I happen to have stick for you
Whenever you need me in a way
Respect me and love me for who I am,
Not what you want me to be.
Don’t compare me with your ex-girlfriend
Cause I was born with different realities.
I was molded by God with very soft clay
So to be touched very softly and to be swayed
I was given heart of gold
And fervor of serpent
I got rotundity of moon,
And curves of creepers
I got the glances of deer’s
And timidity of harem.
I have got warm glow of fire
And coldness of snow
I was given by god, to be cherished
Not to be thrown.
I have got my heart set,
And if not interested leave today
You have 5 minutes to watch me leave
Cause I have to go long way.
I have searched so long in vain
Thinking it would come someday
When I’ll not be alone on Valentines Day
Or when I’ll be one sitting around him someday
It hurts when they question my judgments
Or say that I am not wise to make these choices.
It hurts when he say “his leave got cancelled”
And I can only hold my breath,
Till they become normal.
I see people around me laughing, talking casually
Where I am the one holding my tears,
Looking at him tragically.
The whistle blows and the light turns green
The train starts moving, and
I can hardly speak.
Though in his eyes I can see ribbons of colors
He smiles and moves my hairs from my eyes,
And runs and jumps into a train.
And shouts until we meet again.
Sometimes when I am completely alone
And looking at my curtain colors
He calls me up “hey kiddo wasup”
I jump up as if dead mouse comes alive,
Blushing with special zeal in my eyes.
Two minutes silence and we wonder,
What we should convey
Should I say love u first or
Are you coming this Sunday?
But I hold my horses and manage to utter “huhn”
And likes Santa, he teases me with ho ho ho
And says something shocking like,
“Sweet lord Jesus, open the door”.
Ah! And I run like a mad to cover 20 steps in one second
And at last he stands there stinking, unshaved and totally unaware
That he has my heart and how my nerves start shaking.
Then he takes me in his arms and kisses on my nose, my eyes and ears
While my neighbors get jealous and wished they could be here.
Now who said I got a wrong one
I got a man in olive green, a captain in real
I know he is dumb and he acts stupid all the time
I know he is strange and how he loves to be on time,
How he likes to fold his socks
And also many of you think, he is a cunning fox
All right he is a Satan, his only aim is to kill and threaten,
He is not always their with you, posing as a good husband
All I know he is an EX-NDA and Indian army officer
Who fights for you and lays down his life
And you say he is a man who is not right.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Women do funny things and I have done so many things so many times. I am a curious female and kind of which are hard to understand, but that doesn't mean we are weird.....no, please don't think that, but yes we are corky. And it has been my privilege to have my best moments with my girl's who have been amazing. So dedicated to all the women I know and who have walked with me in my life.
Some women are heartthrobs, they have special way of looking when they are in love with you, they fill up every corner like they're born in black and white, they are the kinds you will like to flaunt, and take them to dinner.
"You really can't deny it, they are who they are. They're pretty normal, not that smooth type. They run into things, they trip, they spill food. They say stupid things... they really don't have it all together...
Hope is all that they have ,either they are in or out ,if you think they will die without u or drink poison ....think about it again ...cause these women believe that their is a beauty in breakdown, they are like phoenix ,a kind who will dress up in black silk skirt and white linen shirt. through which you can easily catch a glimpse of white knitted bra she bought months back ,knowing that it will come handy someday, your ego will be badly bruised and she'll end up getting a promotion and a raise. They know just what u are about, if you tried to hurt them ,they will take your heart out and press it with their feet like u stub you're cigarettes.....there are special terms used for these women like bitches, man-eaters and corky, even crazy.
Anybody can recognize them ,as symptoms are easily recognized at a very early age .Well thanks to their mom's ,they are dressed up like boys, they are the back benchers which doesn’t mean that they don't like to study ,its just that somehow its hard to understand why one plus one is two. And why they were not their when Albert Einstein actually came up with explanations to mathematical problems.
They will always look cute even when they are sweating like pigs, and they have a habit of forgetting most important moments like their mom's birthday or the shopping bags they may have left in a taxi or to turn up in their best friends wedding, where they happen to be the one of the bridesmaid, but their acts are often forgotten or forgivable. For them their is no word called rules, or resolutions, they know about them cause everybody talks about them.
You will find these women in coffee shops sitting with a cold coffee with three scoops of ice-creams and a chocolate donut (smiling) reading cosmopolitan while other's babbling about how there diet is not working.
In offices they'll stand strong with an attitude, when other's are crying and wondering and complaining about how sick their life is and how sick their boss is, you will find this woman in a ladies washroom vomiting in a urinal, and when she think she is ready, she'll freshen up with a lipstick, a perfume and with a sexy smile on her lips .
Other times she will be sitting on a sofa watching romantic films and if her man decided to come at that very moment, he will love what he will see; she'll have watery eyes and will be blushing, damm! You would won't to kiss her.
And if you decide to leave her anytime, she will let you go, without giving you a second look ,because she knows you will be back ,and when u do ,she will kick your ass ,so better not go back.
She is not an angel nor a devil, though she hate Eve or falling in for temptation of eating forbidden fruit, guess she haven't done that we would still be in heaven, but apart from that fact ,she loves you ,she will make you feel as if you are walking on clouds ,she will never burn your breakfast until and unless you make her very unhappy .She is a kind of a women who will not disturb you with excessive perfume but yes your mind would be captivated by her character and sense of wonder .
She is a woman hard to get ,maybe a nightmare sometimes, but a god's favorite child who get what she want and what she deserves at a right time ,guess that's why they say that Women is a sweet poison....when taken can give u toxic pleasures.